KRMA is having a Valentine’s-Sale (only for a short time!) on the Black Jade Leather Jacket Nina Dobrev wears in some of the “The Vampire Diaries” episodes (; … it’s down to $399, so if you’ve kept your eye on that jacket for a while, now might be a good time to get it ;D

*click here to get to the KRMA online-shop*

Love & Rockets
xo Saphira Jane

if I can't be his wife, I wanna do what that lady does ;D

 

Love & Rockets
xo Saphira Jane

Patience really is something I seem to be lacking. A lot. I get impatient rather quickly… especially if I’m waiting for things.
Like… guest announcements for conventions.

Orrrrrrrrr… for a letter or package in the mail. A while back I mentioned having ordered the dress that Miss Katherine Pierce has been wearing in a lot of episodes of “The Vampire Diaries” season 2. It’s the one she wore for the masquerade ball – and has then been locked into the tomb in – only mentally taking it off when having steamy hot tomb vampire sex with her eternal love Stefan Salvatore or rather when playing a trick on his mind, making him think that’s what they’re doing.
Either way… I had ordered it on a major sale from belk, and they only do U.S. shipping – so I had it sent to relatives over in Connecticut. After a whole bunch of snow and not having a chance to send it out, they finally got it to the mail about… one and a half weeks?… ago. Needless to say I simply cannot wait to receive the package!!!

“Right away, Miss Katherine!”

To blog or not to blog about this… has been the question for a while.
Weight is a matter no one really likes to talk about ~ especially not concerning one’s own. And extra-especially not if one’s talking about *too much*.

But… in the end… I have obviously decided on actually sharing this.
Yes. I am overweight. Have been for years.
But it doesn’t make me feel bad about myself – sure, sometimes I pick on myself (doesn’t everyone?) but in the end of the day I CAN look at the mirror, and I don’t care if people make bully-ish remarks about my weight… because, hey, it’s my body – not theirs.
And bullies only bully to feel better about themselves. So instead of making me feel bad about myself, I feel pity for those down-talking others. Seriously, they must be so uncomfortable with themselves… it’s sad.  (;

Plus, some  – not to say a lot – of my extra baggage got packed when my body started acting a mess. I have hashimoto thyreoditis, an auto-immune disease of the thyroid. If treated right, one can have close to no problems with it. However, mine first got not diagnosed and treated at all, and then misdiagnosed and mistreated. I had to go in for so many treatments I actually didn’t *need*… it was ridiculous! I gained a lot of weight – I got diagnosed with being “addicted” to eating. I threw up every time I ate, so I got sent to a nutritional psychologist, or whatever you might wanna call those. My skin got really bad – they blamed it on allergies to whatever. Blahblahblah. I could go on like this forever. But in the end, it doesn’t really matter – anyone can google the “symptoms and side-effects”.
By now I have a doctor I can trust with the matter (one hour drive each time, yay) and seem to be on the right kind and amount of medication. Plus, I  have started to change my eating habits a tiny little bit (just the times) and have as well started to change my sports-schedule. My health has improved, which makes me happy, which makes me want to be more active. So change was needed in order to stay happy.
Which seems to be an important matter in losing some. As I said before I had never really felt negative about myself – but I had to yet learn to feel positive about the things around me, about my surroundings, too.

Anyways (; … I have so far lost over 20 pounds already. Still counting.
There is a lot of weight I still want to get rid of. A lot. But I have to set myself small goals, to always have something to look forward to, something that isn’t still X kg away, but in a closer reach. That’ll lead to less frustration.

So my next goal, for now: -6 kg.

Love & Rockets
xo Saphira Jane

Shattered.
The end of a friendship’s always a sad thing ~ especially when it’s someone you have for years considered to be one of your very best friends. Someone, you shared everything with. && when that someone all of the sudden decides you’re not worth their time anymore… it hurts. More than it should -

well, you treat me just like another stranger ~ it’s nice, to meet you, sir ~ I guess I’ll go, I best be on my way out;;
~ paramore

&& sometimes, just sometimes, you have to realize that you have to let go, and move on. Goodbye my friend – I thought you were the one for me, the one to stay… but sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.
R.I.P. friendship that lastet for so many years ~ you’ll be missed, although to him you have apparently been long dead;;

Love && Rockets
xo Saphira Jane

 

(* picture source unknown – been in the deep depths of my laptop for a while, sorry!)

Uhm… yeah. This entry got its title without me thinking twice about it – bad, bad thing, I know. But hey – what can I say? When I hear or read about Damon Salvatore, my mind easily slips into the gutter.

Last week’s episode of The CW‘s “The Vampire Diaries” was absolutely heart-wrenching. Never before has an episode of anything made me cry like that – and never before have I rewatched one episode that many times in just one day. Not that I already knew that I was in love with the show and its characters, but… this episode is definitely amongst my favorites. Just when I thought I knew it wasn’t going to get any better – and when I thought everything was just too predictable… Damon does the most cutest things I would have never imagined for him to do. The dream sequence that he gave to Rose, the way he took her pain away and let her enjoy her last moments – wrapping her up in so much warmth and love… it got me over and over again.
Thank you, dear “The Vampire Diaries” crew. Thank you.
I would love to fully review this episode, but… no. It doesn’t deserve to be reviewed, judged, or talked about. YOU HAVE TO watch it for yourself – I promise the episode is worth your time. Sure, it most certainly helps if you have watched the show before and know what’s going on, but even if not… give it a try – it might get you hooked. So much sadness, sincerity, love, hurt… emotion. Be careful, Damon – your emotions are about to show. Oh please, please more of that! I’m begging you…

And Damon‘s room… I’d move in at any time (; … I’d probably move in with him anywhere – no compulsion needed – but… especially there, ha.

Lauren Cohan (Rose) did an amazing job. Loved her character all the way… but she just knocked the breath out of me in this episode. The whole thing – everyone did.
Yet… I surely hope to get some more intense Delena moments soon-ish. But hey – if it’s going to happen full force… I’m even willing to introduce myself to Mr. Patience.

I’m fangirling. Majorly. I shall shut up about it now x3

However… what actually got me started typing this {uhm, yeah, I tend to fade into randomness a lot, go figure} was a spoiler I wasn’t even looking for. Yes, I am nosy. Yes, I love knowing what will happen. Yes, I absorb every bit I get. But not spoilers. Not with The Vampire Diaries – simply because for long it was too predictable, and now I’m enjoying having some suspense.
But this here just jumped at me ~

To get over Rose’s death, Damon takes a new lover, spunky reporter Andie Starr. The pair will share a sudsy bubble bath where a shirtless Ian Somerhalder will actually open up to her — not that she’ll remember any of it. “She’s compelled to do whatever Damon says, but she’s so quick and witty,” Somerhalder tells us. “It’s kind of tragic that the only way he can express himself to anyone is if he puts them under his compulsion.”

~ TVGuide

Oh-kaaaay.
It’s great that there’ll be more emotional / deep Damon-moments. I just lo-lo-lo-lo-loooove those. And it’s great he’ll find someone – or shall I say something, a nice new toy? – to help him get over Rose with… whom he started to like because she helped him get over the fact that Elena prefers Stefan the same way Katherine had preferred Stefan.
{Seriously, Gilbert – get your act together and make out with Damon already!}
And… I surely cannot wait to have some bubbly, half-naked Ian… erm… Damon… moments. Nyumm?! But please… pretty puh-leeeease… don’t let him fall for anyone else. For all I care let someone do some magic and have Rose come back – <3. But in the end… he should be with Laynah.
You know you want it too.

Love && Rockets
xo Saphira Jane

She got them for her to fall,
she took them both, she took it all,
playing with the hearts of two young lovers,
known also as the Salvatore brothers.
Katherine thought that they should share
That no feelings were there to spare.

The best poison in the world – called love – she spread,
which turned out to be as useful as a hole in the head.
Not only did she break their hearts,
but also with their lives she dared to play darts.
You don’t have to decide yet – don’t worry,
In the course of this unique lovestory,
forever told,
but never old,
both young men were bitten,
and the older brother’s bitterness never hidden.

A lost love hence is what turned Damon’s heart into ice,
and his dear brother Stefan has had to pay the price.
His heart frozen
- after both of them chosen,
And with Katherine gone,
- neither of them had won…
Damon has wanted his brother’s life to be hell,
Which watching the show, you should know all too well.

Once upon a journal entry,
after more than over a cent’ry,
Elena Gilbert is whom they find,
and to both of them, she’s really kind.
She opens her home, opens her heart,
clear slate, a whole new start.
A dead ringer for the old Katherine she is,
the looks the only similarity you can’t miss.
Quickly in love with her Stefan falls,
and into her heart, too, the feeling crawls.
Damon she reminds of his humanity,
but to say it’s only that would be insanity.
Between them, too, you can see the sparks,
on Elena, too, he’d love to leave his marks.
While Stefan wants to be with her happy,
that makes Damon really crappy.
His Princess of Darkness she should be,
that’s pretty obvious to see.

Everyone likes a bad boy,
in the end of the day.
But being loved and cared for,
could you want more?
Whom will she decide for,
how will it end?
What’s gonna happen,
in the end?

That’s what we stay tuned for, week after week,
To get kissed by a vampire, on the cheek.
Our Hearts are their possession;
Fang-Bang Obsession.

 

Written last summer (: … first published on fanfiction.net, under the name SaphiraJane;;

Love & Rockets,
xo SaphiraJane